This past week was one of the most intense weeks I have ever had in my life. Okay I am exaggerating...maybe...but maybe not.Saturday I had my HSIA Designs Holiday Market. I was so pleasantly surprised when my very first guest was Angie Hunter, a former employee of mine from General Motors. It was so wonderful to see her. She is still as sweet as pie. I have not seen her since like 1994 or so. It was such a blessing. There was a huge lag in time when NOBODY was at the show. I was wondering if anyone else would show up. Then Brenda (BFF) and her daughter Sundai (BFF Neice) came by. We had a blast. Then several other people dropped by and the fun began. Brenda, Sundai and I packed up the show and loaded my car for the next day's events. I came home exhausted.
Sunday I had the show at Leon and Lulu. There were goo gobs of people there. My sales were minimal and I could not help but wonder what I did or did not do right. Everyone said they loved my pieces. I had a variety of price points. hmmm. I was located next to a wonderful artist who made everything delightful. I saw so many of the other artist friends that I have made. The weather was really really bad but people still came out.
Monday I went to the cafe and was feeling sick and congested. I was so cold and could not get warm. I ran home took off my clothes and got in the bed and low and behold I got a call from my corporate job asking "are you on your way?" I had forgotten to write down a client appointment. I got up and drove 80mph to the job which is 20 miles away if I take the interstate which I did. I was really feeling quite sick. After the client session I headed over to Leon and Lulu show from 6-9. I left early because I had not sold anything and I was really getting sick.
Tuesday I worked at the cafe and then headed to Leon and Lulu show from 3-9. My sales increased and I did okay. The highlight of the day was bartering with SooMee for art. She took a purse and a heavily beaded cuff. I got 2 clay wall hangings and a wonderful large framed watercolor. I really like SooMee and hope to develop a friendship with her. Her work is wonderful.
Wednesday I worked at the cafe and then came home and got in the bed feeling congested. I woke up and then headed for Church to give a major presentation for our Leadership Group. I was so on the "edge" and my stress level was dangerously high. Concerned about my job situation did not make things any better. I am allocated work hours every 2 weeks. This allocation was 5hours for two weeks. I have exhausted my savings and now seem to have the weight of the world on my shoulders.
Thursday I woke up sick and did not go to the cafe. I stayed in bed and medicated until noon when I got up and headed to my corporate job to meet clients. I came home cannot remember too much more.
Friday I worked at the cafe and came home. Why can't I remember yesterday? well last night I took lots of nyquil and fell asleep watching Christmas shows on Hulu.com all night until 1 am.
This morning I woke up very stressed and decided to write a prayer petition to God. It took about 4 hours to prepare and then another 30-45 minutes to pray it through and take communion. It was a solemn day for me and I cannot believe that I cried for so many hours and had to use a bath towel to wipe the tears. The towel was sopping wet as if I had taken a shower. I really cry hard and quite ugly. lol
I was also DUMPED by Allen D. He is a guy that I have been chatting with for several months online. about a week or so ago we started talking on the phone. He was such a nice and funny guy. He had gone to Texas to visit family and we talked 3-4 times a day and it seemed to be going well. He flew back Wednesday and could not talk because he had car problems. he texted to say sorry and to call him. I was so sick and decided to text him saying he could call when he was ready to chat...blah blah blah.Well he never did. he also never responded to 2 additional texts. I feel like a real fool. Wow. Getting dumped feels so yucky especially when the guy decides that you are of such little value to him that he just ignores you as though you are crap. Well it is what it is. right? He was still a nice guy before this and hopefully he will be an honorable man with the next woman. I am VERY disappointed with how he dumped me. I did not deserve to be treated with such insensitivity. As far as I know I did nothing to offend him or cause this reaction. I pray that God will bless him with the most wonderful woman in the world that he will love and cherish and who he will want to be kind to and never hurt her or de-value her and that she will love and cherish him. He deserves the best and deserves to be loved.
Now it's after 10 pm and I relaxed my hair and sitting under the dryer. The tears have stopped for now. I am just so dissatisfied with my life in general. I hate, despise self failure and I have quite a few areas of failure going on right now. I wish I could close my eyes and wake up and everything would be just fine.
So that was the short version of the past week. Glory to God in the Highest. Tomorrow is another day. May the sun shine brigthly. OOOPs. this is Michigan and the sun rarely shines here; it is so dark all day long on most days.
Love ya,
Patrice
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