Courage to let go....

It is finally 2012 and I thought it would never come. Doomsayers and even prophet say that some very catastrophic things will happen in 2012. This very well may be true. Whenever you are face with a new year or a new circumstance "YOU" must decide what stance you are going to take. Will it be the high road or the low road.....good or bad.....poverty or prosperity......love or heartbreak. Yes this is easier said than done; I understand as I am the resident expert on being confronted with changes and crisis. When confronted you merely have to make a declaration. You do not know how it will be done, just decided. When I lost my wonderful job at Waste Management Inc in 2005, I decided 2 things which became my daily affirmation. "come hell or high water I will NOT lose my house or my car".

I had not idea how that would happen. I even went for a very long long long time with barely any income. No cash in the bank, no job, no income, no more unemployment...zero zippo.

Now I know at this point you think I am writing this message for you. Yes and well....really no. I am writing it for me, to remind me of how God saw me through the high waters.

Anyway, I did not drown. I had to live day by day and mostly hour by hour.

At one time I had a Job with Kelly Services and a night office cleaning job. Together at the end of the month I earned less that $1000. This was not enough for housing, electricity, phone, food and gas. I had to go without food most of the time. My daily portion was 2 slices of bread, mayo and 1 slice luncheon meat. I would eat 1/4 sandwich for breakfast, 2/3 for lunch and 1/4 for dinner.  I treated myself to a 20oz bottle of diet Pepsi which lasted me throughout the day. From time to time the people at the cleaning job would give me bagels or food left over from a lunch meeting. I was so humbled and honored.  How in the world did a higher level manager for fortune 100 corporations get to this place?

Regardless of how hopeless things got I kepts saying "come hell or high waters I will NOT lose my house or car."

Things have never gotten stable and I am surely far from being back on my feet after over 5 years but I did NOT lose my car or house.  Praise God the car is paid off yet it needs several thousands of dollars in repairs.  My current job (large company) has reduced my hours to about 8-10 hours per MONTH. Who can live on 1 day pay per month?  Jobs are very scarce here in the Detroit Area. Even Target is not hiring.

So for 2012 I will NOT look back at my past and I will bury the old.

I shall move forward in my life.

I SHALL have a whole new life.

I shall have great favor with man and with God.

I SHALL live and thrive.

I SHALL NOT die but live and declare the works of the Lord.

I shall not give up.

I shall not be defeated.

I shall not lose my home.

I shall Go wherever God says to go.

I shall be happy and whole and see the glory of the Lord.

I shall be fulfilled.

I shall be rewarded and recompensed of the Lord.

I shall learn how to trust God.

I cannot give up hope. I just cannot.

I love all of you and I hope that you will take a stance on how 2012 will be for you. Just take the step to declare it and God will start to work in your behalf.